I HATE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
I don't know but I think I am clueless about everything. I am beginning to get lazy again on stuffs that seems to bore me. I am getting to be more like an introvert day by day. Wanna know the worst part? my daydreaming habit is back. Most of the time I found myself floating because of overthinking and froze to death due to daydreaming. I am not quite sure if this is a healthy living for me because I don't know what exactly is my purpose any longer. I daydream to escape life, run away from reality. I don't know if I am still rooting on the right or wrong path. I just don't know myself anymore.
Sometimes, I just felt like a frog came out of a well. A living trash. I don't know. I have plenty of whereabouts but nothing made me contented. My keening soul started to yearn for someone that will never invade my life. I guess if this continues, I will keep on daydreaming until I get tired of it, of him.
To the only person who occupies my mind, please help me forget you. I will just give up because it is impossible that the stars aligned to us.
For now, I will just admire you from a far.
Self, what a sheepish of you.
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